We Cannot Escape Ourselves

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I sometimes imagine that we all exist in two. If not, how then to explain those moments when we get angry with ourselves, blaming ourselves for all the things we have done and regretted? Who is the target of our hostility? Who receives all of it? For that matter, who is the aggressor? When the fight is happening in our heads, it can feel like a mirror broken in two taking up our whole body.

The truth is that there is no escape from this dynamic. We are usually the hardest on those who are closest to us, and how much closer can you get than living inside of you? This means that we usually punish and torture ourselves harder than we do other people, made worse by the fact that we know ourselves all too well.

We are stuck in our own bodies until death comes for us, and…

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The Anatomy Of A Heartbreak

HURT

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Maybe it happens when you give him a kiss on the cheek on a January morning, after you’ve spent all weekend eating Chinese takeout and studying biology and you go to class with a feeling in the back of your stomach of maybe this is it, maybe we’re more than friends, maybe when we both watched Usual Suspects in our pajamas Sunday morning and fell into each other’s arms and it felt strange and sparkly – maybe that’s because this is it. And then he’s leaning back in his chair and gazing at that lovely girl with strawberry hair in the corner, and he texts her and she smiles and he nudges you from his seat, mouthing I’m pretty sure my Friday is booked now, with a wink. You smile back and tell him he loves sex too much, and he laughs at you and nudges you again just…

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Sick

Like what i’ve told you earlier on my post, today was my exam day for civil examination.

This is what they call as an eligibility test for all Filipinos to take if they want to work in the government.

Anyways, sadly and unfortunately today, I was really sick! I ate my breakfast and vomit.the second I took it. I went there and was dizzy and weakly the whole time. I vomit threeeee times! GROSS! I actually didn’t think I did my best, but I tried what I could do given my sistuation. I just wish I did good enough to pas. 😦

That was the longest three hours of my life!

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Hi guys,

It’s 4:00am here in the Phillipines and later this morning, i’ll be having an exam.

Wish me luck, please?

But I just wanted to share one of the most remarkable words from our dearest teacher in Political Science back when I was still in college.

“There is no amount of expensive guard that could hide an empty shell.”

We should love to learn as this takes us to places. As they say, knowledge is power. And with what our teacher has said, I realized that it’s not the money that defies your success, but the learning, the knowledge you received upon journeying your life.

A sexy brain is hot, you know?

Wish me luck on my exam guys! 🙂

Courage, Vulnerability, And Just Being Human

So, I’m vulnerably courageous!

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“You have more courage than me,” he said in response.

I had just confessed to someone that I had begun to think of him as more than a friend.

The feeling was not mutual, but having courage was my consolation prize. It’s good to be courageous, but I hadn’t thought of my bold proclamation as an act of courage – I thought of it more as an act of impatience on my own part.

I didn’t want to wait and see what, if anything, would unfold with the right portions of time and space and dare-I-say destiny. I couldn’t quite muster the energy to do the socially acceptable thing, to stick it out, to drop hints and pick up on semi-subtle cues. I just wanted to know where I stood, for better or for worse.

The quick way. Ripping off the band-aid.

For the record, you know you’re not terribly…

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